‘I Blamed Everybody But Myself,’ Siya Radebe On His Breakup With Lerato Mvelase! It’s been a while since the power couple called it quits and for the first time Siya has publicly taken responsibility for what went wrong.
After Sunday Sun Sunday Sun claimed the actor had landed in hot water for violating a protection order Lerato has against him, Siya took to Instagram opening up about the breakup and how he has tried to deal with it. The actor acknowledged that he had gone the wrong way for far too long and is now apologizing because he’s learnt his lessons.
“I have not been the best boyfriend or the best father. I have disappointed Lerato’s family and my own. I wish there was a way to go back into time and make different choices but what is done is done. There is no undoing it.
He got candid about how it was not easy letting go of someone he loved (Lerato) and how alcohol, changing girls didn’t make the feeling of emptiness go away. “I have tried and in these trying times I have made one mistake after another, and I have been so stubborn or too egotistical to admit that it is nobody else’s fault but my own. I have blamed everybody but myself and I am extremely sorry that it took this long for me to see.”
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I have not been the best boyfriend or the best father. I have disappointed Lerato’s family and my own. On top of that I have disrespected our own children and for this I apologies from the bottom of my heart, I wish there was a way to go back into time and make different choices but what is done is done, there is no undoing it, there is no going back, all I can do now is apologies and move forward and hopefully learn to use these challenging times as an example and lesson in the future, and call myself out…because God knows I went the wrong way for far too long this time around. I have never said this in public before but letting go of someone that you love and shared your life with is not an easy road to travel. Everyday feels like the journey just begun and will not end. No amount of alcohol, late nights out and different girls can make the feeling of emptiness, where the love you had use to be disappear. I have tried and in these trying times I have made one mistake after another, and I have been so stubborn or too egotistical to admit that it is nobody else’s fault but my own. I have blamed everybody but myself and I am extremely sorry that it took this long for me to see. What makes it extremely difficult is the fact that I feel the need to explain myself to others and not just her and our families. This is not an easy thing to do, I found it to be super difficult to do, I wish it wasn’t this way but it is, I wish I was more understanding and kinder to her but I was not, I was actually the complete opposite. I became everything that I promised her I would not be, I made a lot of mistakes and I paid for them greatly, sometimes it feels like I pay for them every day. I am not a nice guy and I am probably the worst boyfriend and the shittiest father I know, but I am happy I can see that now and I am working on myself because truth be told I want to be a good example to my peers and most importantly to my children. Lerato does such a wonderful job with our children regardless of the circumstances, she just keeps going, she is a wonderful mother, I thank the ancestors and the Gods that be for choosing her to mother my children. #dailysun
