I lost 20 babies and finally gave up trying after 13 years. But a month after saying a quiet prayer, I was pregnant with miracle twins

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By KATE SKELTON and JOWENA RILEY, LIFESTYLE REPORTER Updated: 12:14 07 Oct 2026

A woman who suffered 20 losses, including the stillbirth of her first twins, over a period of 13 years has spoken of the ‘miracle’ of finally welcoming two healthy daughters in her forties.

Paramjit, 44, and her husband, Naminder, had spent years trying to start a family, enduring IVF, miscarriages, an ectopic pregnancy and a chemical pregnancy before losing their twins, a boy and girl named Amrit and Fateh, in 2018.

The mother-of-two had developed severely early on-set pre-eclampsia and was told one of her babies no longer had a heartbeat and the other could not be saved, while also being warned by doctors that her own life was risk.

The couple – who began trying for children shortly after marrying in 2009 when Paramjit was 26 – were left devasted by the loss, which put what she describes as a ‘huge strain’ on their relationship.

She recalled: ‘I remember thinking: “I can’t survive this. How can life be so cruel?” I just want to die with them. I felt like my heart had been ripped out of me.

‘That trauma really affected Naminder and I. It put a huge strain on our relationship. We were in a really dark place, it was like living at home with a stranger. We stopped taking to each other, we lived in silence for months, we became zombie-like.

‘After I lost my twins, I was dead inside. I was like a dead person walking around, just trying to survive.’

She said of her struggle to conceive throughout the years: ‘Every time I got my period I felt crushed. Why hasn’t it happened? When will I get pregnant? Is it ever going to happen?

‘I felt under pressure to start a family and was desperate to become a mum.’

Prior to losing her twin boys in 2018, Paramjit and Naminder had explored alternative methods for pregnancy, including ‘taboo’ procedures the mother says aren’t ‘really talked about’ in her culture.

She said: ‘After a couple of years we eventually tried IVF. It was a difficult process, with medication, injections, egg collection, embryo transfer. I was bombarded with medical jargon I didn’t understand and I felt like I was just a statistic.

‘IVF isn’t really talked about in my culture and feels like a taboo subject, so I felt like I was on a secret mission and couldn’t tell anyone.

‘By the time test day arrived I had built up all my hopes and felt so excited. I was sure I was going to get a positive test result. But to my horror, the pregnancy test was negative. I was absolutely heartbroken to discover I wasn’t pregnant and the embryo transfer had failed. I felt crushed.’

She added: ‘I went straight back to work and we tried again and again, only to have loss after loss. This included ectopic pregnancy, chemical pregnancy and miscarriages.

It was so difficult and heart-breaking going to celebratory events for family and friends; I’d plaster a smile on my face and try my best but inwardly I was grieving. I felt broken. It felt so unfair.’

After years of fertility treatment and loss, the couple eventually decided they could not continue trying for a baby.

But, in 2022, after travelling to India and visiting religious sites like Hazoor Sahib and Amritsar, Paramjit prayed: ‘If I have a child, if you think I am worthy of being a mum, I will bring my child back here.’

A month later, something extraordinary happened: Paramjit was pregnant.

She recalled: ‘A month later I missed my period. At first I thought: “Maybe it’s the journey…maybe it’s work..”

‘But I did a test which revealed I was pregnant. What?! It can’t be! I couldn’t believe that after 20 losses during 13 years of trying to conceive I had finally fallen pregnant – just when I’d given up all hope.’

At a six-week scan, she was given another shock when a sonographer asked: ‘Did you know you were having twins?’

Paramjit was overjoyed but terrified that history would repeat itself.

She said: ‘I started crying my eyes out. I was an emotional wreck. On one hand I was elated. Two babies! A double miracle!

‘After losing Amrit and Fateh I never thought I would get to experience raising twins. But here I was carrying multiples again. I told Naminder: “God’s given me my twins back!”

‘On the other hand, I’d lost my beloved twins at nearly 20 weeks. What if it happened again. Losing them had destroyed me, I couldn’t go through that pain again. I felt scared out of my mind.’

This time, her pregnancy was closely monitored because of her history of pre-eclampsia.

She was given medication including aspirin and blood thinners and received specialist care through the Twins Trust maternity engagement programme.

Specialist midwives Nicky and Laura also provided consistent support throughout the pregnancy, allowing Paramjit to attend hospital whenever she was worried.

‘I felt listened to, I felt like I mattered, my health mattered and my pregnancy mattered,’ she said.

At 36 weeks, Paramjit gave birth by planned Caesarean section to twin girls Avnoor and Ajooni.

The section was carried out after concerns that one baby was becoming squashed, while Paramjit was also developing swelling and rising blood pressure.

Holding her daughters for the first time was, she said, ‘the most amazing moment of my life’.

‘After so much heartache – after a 13 year heartbreaking journey and 20 losses – my precious babies were here, I was finally a mother,’ she said.

The twins are now approaching their third birthday.

Parajit is sharing her story during Baby Loss Awareness Week to raise awareness of pregnancy loss and offer hope to other families going through fertility struggles.

‘There can be hope, even in the very darkest moments,’ she said. ‘No matter how long and hard the journey may be, miracles do happen.’

To find out more about bereavement support or the Twins Trust maternity engagement programme, visit twinstrust.org

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