File photo of a worried woman
Dear GhanaWeb,
When I was in class three, I got into a fight with a classmate. She beat me badly and even cut the area under my eye with her fingernail.
Although we were both punished in school, my parents were upset, and my grandmother was angry.
The next day, I stayed home with my grandmother because my eye was swollen. She brought up the incident again and asked me if I wanted to repay the girl for hurting me. As a child, I didn’t know any better, so I said yes.
She then took me inside and told me she was going to give me powers to do anything I wanted to the girl.
She made me swallow something. I don’t know what it was. The moment I swallowed it, she told me I had been given witchcraft powers.
At first, everything felt strange and frightening. Over time, however, I began to feel different. I started enjoying the attention and the sense of power I believed I had.
Initially, I only wanted the girl to feel the pain she caused me. But later, things became worse.
I believed I caused a car to knock her down in front of our school. She stayed home for months. When she returned, I believed I caused another accident, and she eventually died. After that, I felt compelled to harm classmates, teachers, and anyone who offended or hurt me. My grandmother encouraged me.
I feel responsible for the deaths of about 24 people from school, work, and home. As I grew older, I began to hate it, but I feel trapped. I believe that every year I am required to “bring” one person, and that I cannot escape it.
Now I am 28 years old. I have tried to stop. I want to live a normal life. I want to be genuinely loved, get married, and start a family. But I am afraid. Whenever I meet a man, I feel pressured spiritually to sacrifice him. I fear that even if I have children, they may not be spared.
My grandmother is now late, and I feel like I am carrying both her burden and mine.
I have gone to many churches seeking deliverance, but none of the pastors have helped me. One even told me that only someone stronger in that same spiritual world could free me.
I am exhausted and I don’t know what to do anymore. I need help, please.
FG/EB
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