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The 30-year-old pop star \u2013 who started out in the industry as a child and achieved global fame as a teenager when she starred in the leading role of Disney Channel sitcom \u201cWizards of Waverly Place\u201d \u2013 explained that depression had crept in by the time she reached her 20s, and she often thought the world would be a \u201cbetter place\u201d if she wasn\u2019t here.<\/p>\n
She said: \u201cI\u2019m going to be very open with everybody about this: I\u2019ve been to four treatment centers. <\/p>\n
\u201cI think when I started hitting my early twenties is when it started to get really dark, when I started to feel like I was not in control of what I was feeling, whether that was really great or really bad. <\/p>\n
\u201cIt would start with depression, then it would go into isolation. Then it just was me not being able to move from my bed. I didn\u2019t want anyone to talk to me. My friends would bring me food because they love me, but none of us knew what it was. <\/p>\n
\u201cSometimes it was weeks I\u2019d be in bed, to where even walking downstairs would get me out of breath. I thought the world would be better if I wasn\u2019t there.\u201d<\/p>\n
The \u201cOnly Murders in the Building\u201d star \u2013 who revealed her bipolar diagnosis in April 2020 \u2013 went on to explain that she had \u201cnever fit in\u201d with a certain group of people, and claimed that her only show business friend was fellow pop star Taylor Swift as she questioned whether the riches she had attained through her career had really made her \u201chappy.\u201d<\/p>\n
She told \u201cRolling Stone\u201d: \u201cI never fit in with a cool group of girls that were celebrities. My only friend in the industry really is Taylor [Swift], so I remember feeling like I didn\u2019t belong. I felt the presence of everyone around me living full lives. <\/p>\n
I had this position, and I was really happy, but \u2026 was I? Do these materialistic things make me happy?\u201d<\/p>\n