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Wynonna Judd is \u201cincredibly angry\u201d at her late mother Naomi Judd for taking her life.<\/p>\n
In her first interview since country star Naomi, 76, died by suicide in April, musician Judd, 58, opened up to CBS Sunday Morning how she is still struggling with her feelings of grief.<\/p>\n
She told correspondent Lee Cowan about hearing about the tragedy: \u201cI got the call, and I went over, and I saw her and I said goodbye to her in the hospital.<\/p>\n
\u201cI closed her eyes, and I kissed her forehead, and that was that. And next thing I know, I\u2019m sitting here on the side porch, and I\u2019m just trying to figure out what\u2019s next.<\/p>\n
\u201cI did not know that she was at the place she was at when she ended it, because she had had episodes before and she got better.<\/p>\n
\u201cAnd that\u2019s what I live in, is like, \u2018Was there anything I should have looked for or should I have known?\u2019 I didn\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n
Asked if a feeling of anger will ever disappear, Judd added: \u201cNo, I don\u2019t think so, not for a while.\u201d<\/p>\n
Telling how she still feels her singer mother\u2019s presence, Judd said: \u201cI feel her nudging me. And sometimes, I laugh. And sometimes I say, \u2018I really miss you. Why aren\u2019t you here so we can argue?\u2019<\/p>\n
\u201cShe told me one time, she took my hand and she said, \u2018My life is better because of you.\u2019<\/p>\n
\u201cThose are the memories that are starting to come through, more and more. I think when you lose your mother, a lot of that c*** goes away, because it doesn\u2019t matter anymore, it just doesn\u2019t.\u201d<\/p>\n
Judd, who sold more than 20 million albums with her mother, is preparing to perform in what would have been The Judds\u2019 reunion tour.<\/p>\n
She said: \u201cAs I walk out on stage that first night, I\u2019ll probably say something like, \u2018It\u2019s not supposed to be like this,\u2019 because it\u2019s not, right? It\u2019s supposed to be the two of us. And I\u2019m gonna be angry because she\u2019s not there.\u201d<\/p>\n
She spoke after it emerged Naomi left Judd and her actress daughter Ashley, 54, out of her will.<\/p>\n
The singer instead appointed her husband of 33 years Larry Strickland executor of her estate, giving him \u201cfull authority and discretion\u201d over her assets \u201cwithout the approval of any court\u201d.<\/p>\n
The toxicology report on Naomi revealed she had a string of drugs in her system at the time of her suicide, including medications for treating insomnia, Parkinson\u2019s disease, depression and seizures.<\/p>\n