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I remember the first time we met. I don\u2019t think I\u2019ve ever clicked with someone so fast before in my life. <\/p>\n
The moment we met, a friendship was made.\u00a0I knew that I had someone to lean on, to always look for in a room, and who would always be there for me. <\/p>\n
For the first time in my life, I had someone to look up to as an older sister. And for the past ten years, that\u2019s who you\u2019ve always been to me. I knew I could always count on you.\u00a0<\/p>\n
No matter how sh*tty life got, you were always there. For a drive, talk, nail date. I knew that you were my forever friend.\u00a0<\/p>\n
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I never questioned our friendship. You\u2019ve always meant the world to me, and I thought it was the same for you. But lately, I\u2019m second-guessing our entire friendship. It really breaks my heart.<\/p>\n
There was a miscommunication between us \u2014 a big one \u2014 and I tried to rectify it. And instead of you taking the high road and acknowledging it, you decided it was best to be silent and not associate with me. <\/p>\n
You walked around as if nothing had happened. You claim you were giving me space.<\/p>\n
But instead, you wedged a space between us, and I\u2019m scared we\u2019ll never go back to how we once were.\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n
I didn\u2019t realise how loud silence can be until we stopped speaking to each other.<\/h4>\n
Instead of our usual laughter, and regular chatting, there was silence. I\u2019m experiencing what it feels like to be shut out by someone who means the world to me. <\/p>\n
You\u2019re not giving me eye contact, your back is constantly turned toward me, and you\u2019re physically removing yourself from the situation if we are the only ones in the room.\u00a0<\/p>\n
How can you be so OK with treating me like this? Why is it OK for you to be in a crappy mood, but the second I\u2019m upset there\u2019s an issue? Can you please explain it to me? Because since this has happened, I\u2019ve had to hold back tears while you walk past me silently.<\/p>\n
I\u2019m just wishing I\u2019d get a smile, or joke out of you, instead of the blank stares and quick shuffle of the feet so you don\u2019t need to associate with me.<\/p>\n
There\u2019s so much I want to say to you, but because I\u2019m so hurt and frustrated, I don\u2019t want to say anything. <\/p>\n
The one thing I do know is that I don\u2019t have someone in my life who I can think of as a little sister, but if I did, I know I would sure as hell not be treating her like this. <\/p>\n
I would speak to her and explain my feelings toward the situation.<\/p>\n
I feel like we\u2019re in a contest to see who can go the longest without speaking to the other person. <\/p>\n
And we both know damn well that it\u2019s not supposed to be like this. I miss you, and I miss having our relationship be the way it used to be.\u00a0<\/p>\n
If something\u2019s wrong, tell me. If you\u2019re mad at me, say it.\u00a0<\/h4>\n
I can\u2019t tell if I did something wrong or if there\u2019s another underlying issue. But if you don\u2019t speak to me, how am I supposed to know?\u00a0<\/p>\n
I\u2019m scared to see the ending to this friendship. I don\u2019t want to see the end of it. You\u2019re supposed to be my person. <\/p>\n
But if we need to go our separate ways, I understand that as well. I just wish it didn\u2019t end like this. Please, just let me know what\u2019s wrong.<\/p>\n
I love you, I miss you.<\/p>\n
Xoxo,<\/p>\n
Your little sister<\/p>\n
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